These are a few of my favourite things

1. Work - Naturally. It's the very breath i take.

2. My relationship with D - a life force.

3. Rishabh Rikhiram Sharma's Sitar for Mental Health - Divine!

4. Running

Serendipity

 28Nov2024

New continent, new beginnings. A new way of life. And yet somethings stayed the same. The loneliness. The desires. The need for the softer things in life. 

Had given up on all of it. And stayed true to responsibilities and to-dos. Didn't think i was meant for such things. That my life was only meant to be lived for others. 

And yet, once again, on that beautiful evening of 28Nov2022, life changed. Forever.

After moving, life took on a new routine. Work dominated a large part of the day. Then domestic duties. Best part of the day was settling down to some mindless browsing and music. I eagerly looked forward to this part of the day. The evening of 28Nov2022 was one such regular evening. I was browsing some posts that spoke about intense personal and intimate experiences. One such post caught my fancy. Beautifully written, the author's experience triggered intense desires in me. I followed the author not really expecting a ping back. So imagine my surprise when the author, D, messaged back! 

D asked me the reason i followed him. I responded honestly. And with that began a beautiful journey that is today, two years young.

To say D makes my life richer would be a gross understatement. D is my life. My whole world. He makes me want to live for myself. For us. With him, my personal life continues to blossom. I am grateful for his presence in my life. And thankful to him for making me a small part of his! 

D, 😘😘😘😘😘

It wasn't a bend. It was an end. Life as I knew it, ended. Little did I know then how rough the road was about to become. 

8 difficult years of unimaginable chaos, hurt and pain. That we landed on our feet is God's grace. My career highs and R's academic success took the sting out of the rough. And I continued walking, keeping my head in this slippery game of life. R, for her age, continued to display amazing resilience. Bless her!

Two years ago, we moved continents and started a new life. And two years since then I'm wanting to begin a new life. One that focusses on myself too. 

I've never been centerstage in my life. I've allowed my desires to take a backseat and done what was needed to get on with life. Took on responsibilities that weren't mine. And fulfilled them as well as i could. God's been kind though. His Grace has seen me through everything that life's thrown at me and more.

But now, as i get older, I find my mortality staring hard at me. I don't have forever to live. And now I simply want to live it up. I want to live for myself. I want to catch up on all the things I missed. And hopefully, it's not too late. 

 I want to continue doing well at my work. I love my work. I'm wedded to it. I want to work until my last hour, last breath. I pray that my last day at work is my last day in this world. I hang up my boots, turn in for the day and never wake up. 

I also wish to pursue a very personal desire. Quite a few posts hereon, maybe about my personal adventures. or maybe not. 

Either way, just happy to revived my blog. Here's to a new way of living.